Start from scratch

Ralphinella has been through the worst and the toughest the since the past week.

She's been through hell...

and now she's back! hahahaha

sorry guys if I wasn't updating. If you only knew what happened to me. You'll understand. Now starts a beginning of my life as a woman. And it started with shit.

PURE RICH BROWN HOT HONEY GLAZED POOPOO WITH SPRINKLES OF CONFETTI AND STRIPS OF GOLD!

I'm still fighting the urge to spluke and spill all my burdens here, but I'm so on the verge of doing it. This is my blog anyway. I can be the best drama actress. And you can stab my grandslam best actress galore gold trophy down my throat after.

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I read Thea's blog before I made this entry. It's cute. Nice layout ah. But what I dont understand is why she didn't feel me when she was already planning to make a MANHATER'S CLUB with dha and yeng. HOW CAN SHE NOT EVEN INCLUDE MY NAME ON THAT ENTRY?!?! HOW COULD SHE NOT CARE ABOUT ME?! Is my situation less of a heartstumping one to be ignored like *snap snap* that? Not that I'm jealous of you bitches. Thea's all yours for the taking. She's a useless best friend anyway. Can you imagine that of all my friends, the person whom I felt least listened to was my OWN BEST FRIEND??!!??! Well, she can shove dick in her ears for all I care. I AM MY OWN BEST FRIEND.

I want to thank my children for listening to me. For caring for me. Naynay's starting to get used to going through hell everyday. Sadly, even she can't pull herself from the mess she's in. Just give her some more time aryt? Kahit na mukha kaung walang pakialam, alam ku mahal nyo ko. muahmuahmuah!

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This is all too much for me. I have this sms message for Chua which I didn’t have the balls to send. Before I dump it, Here goes…

“Hear me out.. am I cold? I didn’t mean to.. didn’t notice it.. I thought things were still normal..thot I was ok? Thot so too. Thot I cud hndle it. If I ws cool wit it b4, that’s because I ws. I dnt evn knw why all these feelings came up. Dnt ask y Im cold. I cudnt answr u str8. Dnt ask how I feel, It’s not lyk it matters. Just deal wit ths for now. U got wut u wnt. Nd I’m happy 4 u both. Maybe u really are just better thn me. Ill jst hve to deal wit that as well.”

**Message was chopped into 3 chunks**

PART 2.

“Don’t wori bout me. U now hve a prtner to prioritize. Cnt help it if I changed. But I cn say tht I’m just bein true to myself. I’m in no position to shout out my sde. Sum things changed. But I still luv u. I’ll always value our friendship (above some poopoo dickhead whom I mistakingly fell in love for *kidding* (hahaha! I just added this.) I cant give the 2 of u away. But 4 once I just wnt 2 b real.I don’t have anything to defend my feelings. He was never mine. I CAN ONLY DO THIS MUCH TO KEEP EVERYTHING OK.”

PART 3:

"Im not angry/mad wit u if u must knw. My angst is jst ovrwhlming. Jst continue bein happy. Get da most out of it. I knw I wud if I were in your place. Jst don’t mind me. I cn only be silent evrytme and cry every other tme. I luv u both nd I’ll never be in ur way. Ill still be ur gud frind and I knw ull still be to me. Just dnt mind me. JUST DO IT LYK HOW HE DOES IT. I knw I’ll be able to live with ths eventually. Jst dnt expect it to happen now.XOXO *smiley.smiley.smiley*"

So there. Too long? Read everything ok?!

MY TIMETABLE

PHOTOSHOOT FOR MY NEW LAYOUT : Friday

SUBMISSION OF NEW LAYOUT PLANS TO THEA: Saturday (hopefully)

Be at least useful enough to make my new layout. You’re officially a MultimediaArtist-in-Training anyway. Congrats. And Yeng too! Welcome to CSB you bitches! Now stop talking to me about making your lives better in my school. I know. The temptation will get worse and worse there. See you in hell! Hahaha!

CHUA!!!

Happy 18th!

I don't need to say any drama. You're all woman now. I lurve lurve lurve you!
Everything will be okay..aryt?
muahmuahmuah!