Fucky day. I got it on with a hooker!

I'm so fucking tired of recalling my day filled with all crap. UUGGHH!!!!! fucky fucky fucky!


But shit happens. And here I go again.



I have to share to you friends. I just have to let this all out.



I met this guy 2 sundays ago in the chatroom. Of course, guys cruise to find someone they could be with to 'release'. That I hope you guys know. And we did.


After I posted my pick up line in the room, a guy responded in a snap saying


"hey. go to my place. Move your ass quickly. Mom's coming home any minute now."


Being the horny ass that I was. all I could say was


"sure!"


And so I did go to his place. He's cute alright. But his monster was...literally a monster! It's the first time in my life to ever see a tool that humongous! But it's good that we're both versatile(can fuck, can be fucked) so I was top honey!


I admit I liked him. Our talk wasn't that energetic, but he was nice. And we both wanted 'that' to happen again. It did. That second time was better. We had more talk. He even introduced me to his friends which is a good sign.


But I still can't tell our score. I don't know if he could possibly like me. Although he made me feel he likes me, In his guys4men (FYI it's like friendster for gays) profile, he said "friends friends na lang muna, tingnan natin.". That statement totally left me hanging. I don't know if he's tryin to see if we could have something more, or is this "friends friends na lang muna".


But just the other night, he made the worst move he could ever do. And by that he confirmed our score.


We were texting a bit as usual, Exchanged hellos and howRus and haveUeatens and wutRuDoins. And he said he had a sideline and he's 'making money' at that moment. So I asked what it was, he replied:


"do U know sum1 hu wants to hav a mssage? I cn do swdsh mssage. My rate is P500. Ders also xtra service for of cors, an xtra pyment."


Wutthefuckinghell?!?!?! I was like


"rily u do dat? R U jst thnkng of doing dat or have U done dat before already?!"


then his respone was


"Y you think I have d K (karapatan) to do dat? c: Cn U pimp me or sumthin? c:"


FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


uggghhh..



I can't believe I GOT IT ON WITH A HOOKER.


That explains why he's cold and distant to me. I felt that. No wonder, he's a professional!


ewww... major ewwww.


Was the bad thing that happened between me and crom so much of a bad thing to desrve this?!?!?


I mean, I'm not in a rush to be in a relationship again. But I honestly thought he was someone good. I mean, I dont care if he's a hooker, much more if he has AIDS already or something *knocks.on.wood*. But I honestly thought we had something good somehow between us.


Am I seriously not worthy to receive love anymore?????


Liking someone straight is one thing. Falling in love with a hooker is definitely out of this fucking world!!


I resorted to stop texting him. In my last message which I sent him last night I said


"I'm starting to like you... but I don't think that's on your mind right now. maybe you just wanted us o be friends after all."


Earlier this morning, I received tons of missed calls and texts from him. I can't refrain from replying to his messages. But I didn't say much.


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...My mind's point blank.


I'll make my life a little better. i'll be back in a bit.